I would ruminate, berate myself and try to work everything out... from now on things would be different!
But the same situations would arise and I would end up behaving in the exact same way. The pattern continued over the years and I continued to bottle things up and act as if everything was fine.
I started reading personal development books looking for a solution, but things didn’t really change until they got worse. Why do we wait for things to get bad before we take action?
In 2010 I became depressed. I had lost my Mum and 2 close friends over a period of time and, although if you were to look at my life it all seemed good on the outside, on the inside some of my needs weren’t being met. I was self-critical, a perfectionist and also bottled things up.
Everything that happened in my life reinforced my beliefs about myself, nothing I did was good enough and I reasoned that neither was I as a result. I spent so much time in my head thinking and it was my thinking that was the problem.
I turned to hypnotherapy, it allowed me to look at things differently and my thinking changed. What you think about yourself and life dictate the quality of your life. You can change your thinking.
My interest grew from there. I went on to do a Diploma in Clinical Hypnotherapy form the Manchester College of Coaching and Hypnotherapy and decided I wanted to have a career in hypnotherapy. I could help myself and others and also relate my own experience.
My appreciation for the mind-body connection has really grown over the years since then, both from my own experiences and my clients. You already have all the resources you need to make your transformation.
I’m now a lot happier just being me. Life continues to throw up bumps in the road for me every now and then, but I now respond to them better than I used to.